As I am

@yingers11
2 min readApr 21, 2024
Captured happiness.

The moment my brother started sharing the backstory of his song selection was the moment I started crying.

The weekend before, he said, one of his favourite clients, a grandma who loved a game of Rummikub, had passed away. He spoke of missing her laughter, her skillful triumphs in the game, and, most of all, her presence.

Being involved in shaping the last moments of numerous cancer patients’ lives holds such immense weight and significance.

It means absolute vulnerability – building every relationship knowing its imminent date of demolition; choosing every word, both spoken and unspoken, knowing that it could well become a full stop; cherishing every hug and hand-holding, knowing that it could be a final touch.

The moment my brother started singing was the moment I started crying harder.

The song he sang was unfamiliar to me, but he sang to the void left behind by all those we’ve lost. My propensity for sadness only heightened the emotional intensity of the moment.

Despite the physical distance between us — he on stage, I in the audience — I felt an incredible connection to my brother during that moment.

无别

作词:何启弘
作曲:谭旋

情丝挥剑 断了纠缠仍相恋
有谁怜 灭了明灯对残月
往事化蝶 掠过花丛又离别
忍着泪 等待重遇的喜悦

花瓣落成雪 满城游魂夜
曾信仰的爱丝毫未冷却
容颜未憔悴 徒让白衣袖成灰
和宿命不停追逐后 相会

别后 花枯萎 眷恋盛开过的美
一回眸 满眼幸福的诗篇
别后 花残缺 还剩绽放过的醉
错过你 尝尽酸甜都无味
错过你 尝尽酸甜都无味

情丝挥剑 缘份消失仍隐约
有谁恋 灭了明灯对残月
往事化蝶 昨日比翼今双飞
忍着泪 等待重遇的喜悦

花瓣落成雪 满城游魂夜
曾信仰的爱丝毫未冷却
容颜未憔悴 徒让白衣袖成灰
和宿命不停追逐后 相会

别后 花枯萎 眷恋盛开过的美
一回眸 满眼幸福的诗篇
别后 花残缺 还剩绽放过的醉
错过你 尝尽酸甜都无味

别后 花枯萎 眷恋盛开过的美
一回眸 满眼幸福的诗篇
别后 花残缺 还剩绽放过的醉
错过你 尝尽酸甜都无味
转身后 漫漫长路都无别

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@yingers11

I materialise into existence only when blots of ink flow and beads of perspiration drip.